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A broken chair will always make noise once it is repaired. My life is broken chair but I am saving it with even a 1% chance of survival because the death is not what I am scared of. “It is not the vital monitor that pronounce death. It is doctor who gives up on his patient.” As long as doctor won’t give up, it shows that the patient is still alive.

fullsizeoutput_14c7Based on incidents, experiences, and knowledge, I have practice to build courage. We are aware that everyone have story and we think our problem is the worst one which other people can’t feel or understand. In fact problem does not exists.

This is the story of hospital. I was lying in the hospital bed for 16 hours, waiting for surgery. Such place where those sparrow, crow or flies will never see this emergency ward of hospital. The big corridor, patients lying in the bed with bottle of Clyne, total silence, smell of cleaning products, empty stomach, rushing doctor and nurses. While nodding head-either right or left I can only see patient with hanging Clyne, most of them keeping their hand either on stomach or in forehead, I don’t know why? I can’t do both because one hand was injured even can’t move that one whereas another was with siring, Clyne bottle.  There is no timetable to fall asleep and wake up. The noise in every few minutes, phone ringing, or gossip between staff working in the hospital or nurses for regular follow-up won’t let proper sleep. Obviously it is not easy to wait 16 hours, counting every 5 minute to wait for the call. Remember bathroom is strictly not allowed.

I finally come to the decision in people’s life nothing happens, it’s us we create. It’s us we should blame that we are unable to think and make right decision. I would like to take myself as a stupid fellow. How to react? Who will be responsible after my any action? Off course me, off course I should be responsible, because I was the one to plough words.

Life will go on, there is no doubt, there is nothing best or better, and everything is awesome. Our need and dedication gives us happiness and we feel good after achieving it. I never judge whether I have understood clearly or not. But, always ready to grasp and tackle any difficult situation. We have to make some effort to attempt, to achieve it.  But without trying we will regret or feel sorry for the situation. Here are some examples and some effort;

  1. I have never thought that I would be able to come to abroad because I was weak student but smart in other extra curriculum activities. Mind that not in intellectual activities, talking with people, eating, making plans, travelling, it means good at useless things.
  2. I haven’t shared with parents regarding applying for abroad, because I was gambling my fate. Also, I tried to find out how is it possible to go abroad without paying full tuition fee. I didn’t feel like going to consultancy because I don’t want to pay them money. I googled and collected information’s, found one Nepali guy and with his help I achieved abroad plan.
  3. I was always in search of joy and happiness, or what kind of job I love, so I listed things which I wanted to do in my life, and roughly made a plan, some were like impossible but still I could achieve. Finally, I started working at charity organisation happy to be with those kids who were so lovely, assist with educational material or feeding twice a week.
  4. I was with my friends at Sundarijal, was enjoying there, I saw one lady standing on the edge of rock, I told her “Life is very beautiful, don’t stand on too edge, be careful.” Later on she shared with us she was there to commit suicide. She was suffered from domestic violence; her husband is officer in police force. She came back with us. Once she rang and shared she is living happy life. I don’t know now but that time she got her new life.
  5. I found guy from Nepal in Facebook from where I wanted to go to my dream country Scotland, Scotland national dress is Kilt and Scottish slang is probably best in the world. So that guy helped me a lot, even he talked to university. Off course I don’t have good grades in my student life.
  6. To hurt knowingly is not my piece of cake but, without doing anything still people will get hurt, slowly we will gain enemy. It does not make any difference but never forget to apologise this is wise deed.
  7. Financial matter always comes front, whoever is that, we always feel that is problem. It is unbelievable but once we start making a plan and exactly we can figure out where are we leading our life, write it down we our self will see the solution, those notes will give us solution. Off course it will. It sounds funny, but everything is funny here. Nothing is average or similar even check the pair of your shoes it is slightly different, check it; though that is made from same machine.
  8. It is never good to underestimate anyone, even we think that our mum won’t be able to use smartphone, let’s say I phone. I will give my example, I want my mum to get engaged bit more, and learn new things. It was not friendly with her for few weeks now she do not want to leave smartphone. Stop brainstorming. We never know what will happen but off course if we lead a path that will lead to destination.
  9. It was hard time while I first came to Kathmandu. By the time I was engaged in job, and more involved in travelling, friends gathering, and fun. There were plenty friends, if I have to reach Koteshwor from Baneshwor it takes an hour or more because on the way I meet people. There is always time for cup of tea with friend.
  10. After reaching abroad, I realised while I was in back home I was living life, that is so much luxury whereas, the facilities and liberty is which I am getting here. I knew and felt it’s only me no one else will make my life. I have to be independent. This will teach what life actually is.
  11. If you like something be honest and see how it works, do not pretend, hide or act. But need to have patience regarding this. Patience to listen, patient control your anger, patience for everything.
  12. I was rude, aggressive, and high tempered guy, but from each incident I updated. Everyone can do it but we are lazy and are not ready to practice or accept it.
It is never late to start. Swami Dr. PrapannaCharya he died last year, he was in India working somewhere, in the age of 30 he realised he want to study, he started it and while he was 46 he is Doctor Prapannacharya. One German monk started learning Chinese while he was 90-year-old. Everyone was surprised he is 90-year-old what he will do by learning Chinese? And there are more than thousand signs in Chinese language? The monk answered, it’s never late to learn. I am learning for myself not for other it doesn’t make any difference whether I am 9 or 90-year-old.

I have to live today so tomorrow exists. This is my personal dogma. This is my set of belief, in summary I feel it. Among many I believe this it is my assertion. Which is helping to live with full of joy and love. There is ups and down in our life there is no doubt. I have faced and tackled debacle. I guess I will never know what will happen in a minute. I belong to the society. I belong to family, friends, and this universe too. Repeating philosophical words and being optimistic sometime tastes paranoid fantasy; thinking like a victim whilst displaying extreme, irrational distrust to others. At the same time my beliefs stench and directly or indirectly effect. It lasts for few seconds and band together and scares me of deportation. Isn’t that’s poetic? Talking about feelings is disaster, which sounds good in words. In reality set of beliefs, philosophy is for self-help that will hardly influence people. There is no doubt knowing or unknowingly everyone has set of philosophy which derives them. At least sharing stories, experiences and very little things makes me feel good. I never counted blog reader but there is no doubt I read my blog myself according to the situation. It is always written in different situations which has travelled with me in my life. There are very few blogs regarding prediction. I never tried to write biology and but effaced many thoughts which hurts other.

Love, respect and Peace.


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We all are aware about the history, we should feel the pain in everyone’s heart and how cruel people can be while they are forced to do some cruel act. It sounds so good and feels so good to kiss in chick, or just to drink cocktail sitting in the bar with dim light.

There is the big discussion and voice regarding “Women’s right around the world” many feminist writer wrote article regarding “Women’s rights equality”, “Feminist movement”, “Suffrage movement”, many “Women’s rights organizations” (also called feminist organizations) have formed many prototype ladies are in the society, Harriet Beecher Stowe the American author’s best-selling (in 1852) novel “Uncle Tom’s Cabin” who raised the voice regarding slavery. This novel touristed in America regarding antislavery movement. Emmeline Pankhurst founded the Women’s Social and Political Union (WSUP) raised voice regarding equal voting rights with men. Pankhurst even sit on chain hunger strike in UK, finally law was passed, unfortunately she died three weeks before her success. Portrait of Anne Frank house, story of her life while working at German occupation, at the age of 13 during second war while hiding on second world war 2 was sold more than 30 million copies, also has been translated into 67 languages. Simone de Beauvoir’s feminist philosophy “The Second Sex” analyzed the treatment and perception of women throughout history, Vatican put this into The index of Prohibited books. Rosalind Franklin’s is a British chemist and x-ray crystallography revealed the structure of the DNA. Cleopatra (69-30 BC) defended Roman Empire from expanding Egypt. Boudicca in 1st Century AD is inspirational leader of the Britons (ancient celtic people who lived in Great Britain from the Iron Age through the Roman and Sub-Roman periods).

There is many example of “maternal filicide” who deliberately kill their children. It is not common to kill own children either putting them in the microwave or killing and keeping them in the cardboard box. Megan Huntsman killed her six infant in ten year (1996-2006). China Arnold, of Dyton, OH the reason behind killing her three kids putting them in the microwave is argument with boyfriend regarding biological father of her child.

It’s been more than a ages still it’s normal to miss you. It is my habit to feel you that you are side by me in my difficulties or steps of success. Although you are not with me, I met different people every day, every moment. But your presence is something different, even the imagination that you are with me makes me feel so good, encourages to take decisions in difficult situations.

Three different layer of lipstick in her lips, another layers in her eyes, two layer, in a sense it was clearly glamorize. She was looking so gorgeous (better than Geneva watches) in a glance. Everything seeable were top branded except the transportation which we both wear travelling. She is same girl whom I bump with in the gym today. We both gave a look one sweet smile still we are stranger; I did not bother to build house of sand by falling on love with her. I do not know either she is prototype lady or Ideal girl.

After shaking her hand, she slimly nodded her right chick, I kissed in her right chick, I was rushing to catch another train, I got off from the metro. She was the one to remind me about that stop to catch my another train. I got off there. She could have easily let us flow our conversation because I was travelling for the first time in this city. I have already mentioned that I am tourist here. So, it’s clear, I don’t know which stop was that, neither I could understand the announcement made in metro.

Everyone meet new people in the pavement of the city, under the city lights, parks, or workplace, everywhere. There is nothing new to be surprised or to be excited.

During the day, while I was in the cafe my eyes catches the cellphone by the side of my table. It was wrong to look at someone’s personal gadget but anyone could easily identify what she was doing. She was not aware about it. I didn’t make any effort to read her phone conversation. She was sitting next to me (behind the sofa, which I was sitting). If it was not me some other person would do same. I saw text message “Please reply my dear daughter.” “Speak with me.” “What happened? What is the problem?” “I will do everything to see you happy.”

She keeps sending polite lines to her daughter but there was no response at all. And in 1-2 minute or may be less within a minute she composed and tried her best. As we all know we love to read previous conversation if someone doesn’t give any response. She was doing same. She begins to scroll the old messages and start reading last conversation with her daughter was a week ago. I could guess there was nothing her daughter mentioned. It was general and off course girls -“love you mama, ummaha :)” and chit chat..

No one could guess she was stressed or missing her daughter so badly with her appearance. Unless anyone should see wiping her eyes (pushing spectacles upwards to forehead.)

And, I said to myself “really? early in the morning this shit! And I was in the mood to enjoy my day off with my friends.

There is expectation, emotions, feelings, presence, we all have it. We all are aware about our own BIG TALKS, BIG WORDS. As if we are changing this world, even we don’t have time to look ourselves – observe for ten minute a day fly from one country to another and feelings for anyone. We have a solution for everything; everything what we bump into. It might be national issue, international issues, emotional matters, diplomatic talks, personal, even at workplace. Let’s step back and think it once vary rarely we have said “I have less knowledge about it,” or I am conveying this conversation without any trustable evidence. Interesting fact is knowing all this still we enjoy the conversation, gossip with friends cause the way of presentation also it sounds so realistic.

Every moment is totally new except our existence. We all are aware about this some of us accept it and have fun. Some of us love to create boundary in self.

Even that girl whom I met in the metro, I didn’t have enough time to kiss in her another chick. She turned her chick gently for another kiss, while I finished kissing on one side. Silly, Metro do not wait for our second kiss, so we don’t have enough time for another one. I did not bother that. We were strangers before and until next meeting.

Everyone have the story; each day we should be prepared to accept the story. It depends in our mood, if we want to keep or let it go. We cannot take everything together what we see, what we like. We have left many things behind till this phase of life.

We keep doing mistakes, similar mistake, but we even do not bother to look back and try to paint different layer in our life, set up paint program. Because we are always proud of what we have. We love to read new biography of successful person in the world but we never try to make our own life as the part of success. We, I, me, self is one of the powerful person and also enough to be an extraordinary in the world. Meanwhile, similar group of people, who have such vision will lead this society, county, country and finally world. Our strategy and vision leads us to success. Hence the reason many prototype lady, and feminist are needed in the society. Many of us are lingered in our own problems and we will never overcome from it because we do not dare to do it, but we always love to listen Hillary Speech, keen to know Hillary Clinton recent news, or sneaking where is Hillary Clinton Today. Let’s ask ourself where are we today? Where we will be tomorrow? Let’s keep everything aside and think for a while, point out what we can do, start from now someday we will be more powerful in the world like Angela Merkel.

Being optimist,

‪‪Wolfgang Schäuble‬, ‪European Union‬, ‪Europe‬‬